PLANLESS TGIF

TGIF hehe, its alrd th end of th week. weekendsssssss wooooo~

so last tuesday aftr ibu ended work, we had dinner tgthr as a family, with babe as well. so yes, babe and ibu interacted and they seem to be gg on rly well hehe. i cn rly see tht ibu likes babe. haha i asked ibu to call babe "babe" as well. haha so cute. aftr dinner we went t watch th usuals play takraw at marine parade haha. 

well, tht was tuesday, thn on wednesday, zyzy came t my house early in th morning hahaha. she was sent home. haha, her hair colour, socks, shoe lace and ears got caught HAHAAHA. and we spent th whole morning watching PrincessDiaries 1 and 2. well, aca was home as well. haha. thn in th aftrnn we went t tamp. i had t meet my classmates fr our grp project. so yeah, i met babe thr as well. i had my double choco frappe hehe thnks to babe<3 and i bought cherry cream cheese meltz mmmdap hehe $2 je. :) aftr i was done with my project, i followed babe and watched him play takraw. well, some of his friends were familiar in a sense tht ive seen thm somewhr bfre, well actually in sch haha. aftr takraw babe sent me home bfre gg fr his night work :)

on thursdayyyy...i actually made babe wait fr 2hrs bfre i actually wake up. hehe, he arrived outside my  house whn i was asleep and he had to whtsapp me fr idk how many times, gave me 36 misscalls until i finally wake up and pick up his phone call. we spent th whole aftrnn tgthr, aftrwhich i had t go off t tamp again fr my grp project. i had my mcspicy plain with cheeeeeeeese hehe yay :) well, aftr babe left, i swear evrything was attcking me. i dont wish to elaborate it here, hais. but i rly pray tht something good will turn out frm this :( hais. 

well actually im waiting fr babe to arrive, hais im at home now with jaja, WHO IS ALRD ASLEEP HAIS. i hv no plans fr tonight. 

FUCK TH WORLD TMR IS A SATURDAY AND DAMN IT........BABE'S GG AWAY FR 10 DAYS :(

babe, i'll pray fr yr safety and health. i'll wait fr u to come back. i'll always pray fr u<3

and yes, i'll be sending u to the airport tmr morning. 

obviously i'll miss u<3

jst do me proud.

love you babe<3

another round of weekend with th usuals

so hi guys....frm whr i ended, on saturdayyyy.....i went t town, yes, who wldnt guess.

so i went thr alone, and met jaja, faiq, mickey, hidir ah senang kata everyone la!

and yeah, i met babe as well. and he introduced me to some of his friends. hehe. yknw wht? babe treated me to yoghurt, well at first i thought of sharing it with him, but aftr he ate one spoonful of it, he gave up hahaha. cute la u babe. so i had t finish up tht whole cup alone haha. thn aftr tht he went t play pool with his friends and i went t have my dinner with alex, jaja and faiq over at burger king. hehe.

aftr dinner, i met babe again and we sat tgthr hehe. and blablabla, bfre he went off, he surprised me with kitkat alaaahai <3 syg babe.

aftr town we went t tamp, and ton thr. so thr was zyzy, jaja, zhaleeka, herni, arfah, zizie, apple, khai, ryan, haic, mickey, wan, een, hidir, ben, ary, alex and fik. ok i enjoyed tonning with thm cuz they had guitars and we were singing hehe, sumpah suara apple and fik sedap gila boleh jatuh cinta ngn suara haha, k kidding, but rly sedap la. and alex suggested tht apple, fik, himself and myself go for some recording session, hahahah, AKU ON AH PLS :)

ok apart frm tht, on sunday, i slept fr 16hrs all th way till monday morning at 4am thn i woke up. haha. perangai tido mampus sia aku. haha. and whn i woke up, babe called me and told me tht he was on th way to marine parade awww<3 so he treated me to my late night supper hehe. thnkyou bb, thn we walked to eastcoast and went stargazing, and we watched th sunrise hehe, sweet gila pls. thn we went bck to my place in th morning. and thn zyzy came. thn we all went down to slack with wan and munir. aftr wan left, zyzy, munir, elly and jaja came up to my house. we slacked and bonded hehe <3

and today, im planless all th way till ibu ends work. we're gna go to parkway and buy stuffs hehe yay :) 

and guess wht, me and nadirahjamal are alrd ok i guess, alhamdulillah. hehe, it was jst yesterday tht i told zyzy how much i missed talking to her :') aminnnnn. hehe.

so right now im home alone, well, frever and always. hmmmm. i cant wait fr sch to re-open. i cn totally die without doing anything la hais. hmmm i guess i shld jst get some sleep? a nap myb? haha. 

<3

happy girl

so yes on 21st, thurday night, i went t st james, powerhouse.

i went thr alone, and met th rest at vivo. party with th usuals again. Mickey, Wan, Ayam, Fadzly, Ryan, Hidir, Faizal(pekjal?) and yes i thank god fr Zyzy<3 th only girl with me. hahah. yg lain semua lelaki! and believe it or not...me and zyzy dressed up like girls. hahahah we were in our dresses and we wore our creepers hahaha. dayyum fr once we looked like girls haha.

we partied and yes this time it was better thn thursday's. cuz thr was dj kzee and he played alot of familiar songs, those songs tht i have in my phone playlist as well :) damn i rly enjoyed myself. and yes at this one point of time...ok at exactly 12mn i was looking all over fr babe. but hais i didnt knw whr he was. but abt 20mins aftr tht he txted me and said he saw me and wanted me t keep on dancing<3 hehe. thn he came closer t my place and we kinda dance tgthr evnthough most of th time he choose t jst look at me dance haha.

part epic...bila hais zyzy kene tangkap kasi pinjam kawan dia ic abeh hais kene halau and tht was th part whr i felt like hais :( no tangkis. haha. but yes we all had fun. and aftr th party, all of us went t hv our rly early breakfast at Seah Im. i had half of prata kosong, half egg prata, and half cheese prata oh and bandung. hehe. i share with le zyzysmall.

ok enough of all th party blablabla....guess who has someone in life? guess who has a soulmate? guess! ceh! ME. yes. im blissfully attached to my one and only babe<3

YASSIN SUHAIMI<3

babe, i guess we're officially tgthr now, 22nd<3 hehe yr favourite number.

yknw yr presence in my life rly made a huge difference. I promise to stay honest, faithful, and everything. somehow a "perfect girlfriend fr u. I rly thank you fr accepting all my flaws. i knw we might not be able t rly spend time w each othr cuz you'll definately be busy with takraw and also sch and me with sch as well. despite all this, we still tried t meet up, well evnthough jst fr awhile. hehe, i rmbred meeting up w u fr only 15mins? hehe. babe, evry second with u is precious, evry second counts<3

babe, i rly hope youre my last, insyallah kalau ada jodoh. amin.

yknw wht babe? i jst rly rly love you<3

gosh its been so long

dayyum son, ive been missing fr abt a month! haha.

i jst didnt hv time t blog la. been busy with my circle of friends. those pics above tells alot.

so its alrd sch holiday fr me yay.

ive been gg out sooooo frequently. like evryday. tamp on weekdays, thn town on saturdays. only on sundays i'll be at home. new ppl came into my life. and yeah, i treasure thm. hahaha ok nonsense.

so fr th past two weeks, ive been spending most of my money on partying haha. its ok to party once in awhile. this month, ive alrd been to 3 mixed aged events. first was at The Herem. well tht was organised by WYS and yeah, it was fun with all my bbyg and abangs. hehe. thn th othr 2 was at Powerhouse. and it was not bad ah, jst tht....in my opinion, thr were soooooo many chinese, not being racist or anything but yeah thr were alot rly! and this coming thursday, 21st, thr wld be another mixed aged event over at Powerhouse again. guess i'll be attending tht as well.

well, enough of th party stuffs. my bbygs now. Anaqah, Elyana, Zizie, Jaja, Zyzy, Farah, Jayne, Tisa, Sabrina. ive been spending my time with these beautiful ladies and not forgetting Mickey, Wan, Asrul, Iman, Fadzly, Faiq, Fee, Ajar, Apple, Ayam, Aizat, Munir, Khai, Ryan, my abangs :)

these are th ppl tht i wld always be with. my happy pills :)

and recently, i think ive found someone tht cn actually make me smile jst by looking at him.

BABE<3

he's been searching fr my twitter acct fr 3 weeks, went thru 18 ppl's followers list jst t find my twitter. and aftr tht, he waited fr 22hrs till i tweet and another 16hrs till i wake up and tweet again. those small things he did, made me fall fr him. his calls/txts cn alrd make my day :')

syg u pls babe.

and yeah, im meeting him tmr yay, i miss him so much.

oh and yeah, since its alrd sch holiday fr me, i plan on finding a part time job fr myself. well, at least i cn like earn some extra cash fr myself? haha. i wna shop so badlyyyyyy. i barely hv anything left in my wardrobe to wear! its like so ew alrdddd. le sigh. SO DOES ANYONE HAVE ANY JOB VACANCY ANYWHR AT ALL?

ok so right now im actually waiting fr another phone call frm babe. haha he's watching soccer over at his friend's place right now. yea, guys wld be guys and watch soccer. hahaha i dont understand anything abt it at all. all i know is, ronaldo is cute hahahah. 

guess this is long enough? haha. i'll try t update regularly.

<3

i jst cant......

HONESTLY RIGHT NOW IM NOT ALRIGHT.

i rly dont knw fr how long i cn actually hold it in. i rly dont.

ive been faking too much smiles, forcing too much laughters. 

no one knws why im feelin rly down, cuz i rly didnt tell anyone at all.

but thrs only one reason t why im feeling so low like this.

beczuse of one thing, it changes my mood totally. totally.

i hv t thnks my friends who always make me smile, laugh, happy and evrything else.

but thn again, do you knw tht feeling whn u rly wnt t cry but your tears had alrd dried up?

like u try so hard t hold it in and whn you rly wnt t burst it all out, thrs nothing.

its alrd like im heartless, emotionless.

im mentally, physically, emotionally not ok. 

"To be hurt

To feel lost

To be left out in the dark

To be kicked

When youre down

To feel like youve been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down

And no ones there to save you

No you dont know what its like

Welcome to my life"

deprived

honestly right now, im not myself. 

ive been rly down inside. myb i look th same outside. 

im forcing laughters and faking smiles.

honestly only anaqah knows wht im gg thru. i shared it with her alrd.

but howevr, sharing my problems jst doesnt help tht much.

its still killin me inside.

i actually wnt t jst share it t anaqah again and again but im jst scared if i'll annoy her.

she has her own problems t handle too. 

basically, i think im like love deprived. not tht i dont receive much love frm my family and friends.
but u knw tht feeling whn you jst want more attention frm a guy?
like tht one guy u hv a crush on? tht one guy tht u rly rly fall for?
i guess im jst too picky.

but sometimes, i jst miss being pampered. im a girl, a girl tht wnts t be pampered, day and night.

yknw at times, i rly feel utterly jealous. jealous at some couples. like those sweet couples tht cn last rly long. evnthough those couples hv some misunderstandings and arguments, they still settle it their way and continue their relationship.

hais, nvm, i'll let love find me, fr now, ive got my babygirls tht i cn count on t make me feel happy.
like wht anaqah said "good things will come to those who practice patience"
i hv patience.

<3

longlong update

dear all, i hvnt been posting regularly now. cuz basically i am busy w school and tht i dont rly spend so much time at home. im usually out aftr sch, and on weekends as well. so i hvnt blogged fr two weeks. actually nothing much happen. jst tht...i met new ppl, and i left some ppl in life. sch's th same. monday to friday sch. i hvnt actually miss any day of sch. cuz im alrd loving th environment of my class and my classmates as well.

two fridays bck, i attended fresman party over at ite macpherson. it was not bad, though the songs played cld actually be better. haha. thr wasnt any hardwell, le sigh. but i rmbr dancing all th way, thoughout th whole party, tgthr with yana ferrel, zyzy small, farah dilah and tisa<3 haha, actually it ws fun la haha.

thn on saturday i went t town. i accompanied anaqah to meet yat. met th rest thr. blablabla, slack till abt 9plus almost 10 thn went off. haha. thn slack at anaqah's house. we movie marathoned. haha, we watched shutter thn we watched some stupid show and we fell asleep half way haha. 

nothing much happened on sunday, thn again another week of sch. so i rmbred on weds, i had S&W. and we ran three rounds of th sch field and thn we did standing broad jump. i jumped till tht mark of 182cm. I KNOW I DAMN KENTAL. but sorry i cnnt help it. i hv short legs hais sorry la. AND OMFG LA I HAD MUSCLES CRAMPS ON MY LEGS TILL FRIDAY! 

and on saturday, which is like 2 days ago, i went t town again, this time with jaja. i got myself an A&F tshirt and GAP tshirt. HAHA, i treated jaja pizza and yoghurt. thn aftr tht......idk wht telah happened, suddenly we all drank haha. i bought 2 bottles of scotch whiskey and Ukretek fr myself. so thr was me, anaqah, zyzy, farah, tisa and jayne tht drank. HAHA. fucking kecoh. i rmbred vomitting twice and at both times, someone wiped my mouth fr me, someone borrowed me their lap so i cld sleep on and someone tht actually took care of me <3

tht someone<3

hahahais, and its a tuesday now. considering aftr 12mn. ITS LABOUR DAY, ITS 1ST MAY ERRBODY. hahaha. so april has been......ok? idk i guess so. so my first month of sch wasnt tht bad. i actually love sch. alot hahah. 

OH SHIT,

hahah ive been saying oh shit fr th past week and i guess some of th ppl tht im usually with are alrd getting addicted t tht phrase as well HAHAHAH. cuteness i swear<3

ok i guess this is th longest evr post tht ive evr posted HAHAHAH, i shld prolly head fr bed now. i rly dont hv any plans tmr if my granny doesnt transfer me money. le sigh. hopefully she wld. ok shall rly get off my macbook now. 

nanights<3